Free Fall

[rhapsodythebard]

This poem was originally submitted to Fiction Press on the 16th of May 2005. Still it is a gem. I posted it today to Deviant Art as well.



Free Fall

When the silence occupies my mind,

Many words beg to be spoken, but it becomes too much.

I choose not to be myself, for it will hurt the other if I would be

I huddle in the dark, hiding what is me, arms wrapped around my knees

Rocking back and forth, fighting down what surfaces so rapidly

Even now, I fail to capture my pain and ugliness in words


When hope is long lost, love lies long forgotten

The hourglass rotates once again and like it has always been

The sand pours down, just as if my own feelings beg to be released

I realise that I am just a number, a grain of sand amongst many others

How could it be, that this month slipped by so fast?

I cannot dote on what has been, since it is lost to me forever


When I cross that which I should not pass, blinded by faith, trusting to be understood

I render myself useless, merging back into the shadows that should shelter

Hoping, no begging, to find the long awaited release that will not be

I cannot give in, I cannot let it win, I must not forget

More than ever only giving, while my inner soul slowly drowns

In the pain, the sorrow, being the unwanted unless needed, the Darkness envelops me


Bring me home where I can go numb until I can feel no more

Take me to where there is no pressure placed upon me

Deliver me, free me from this wanting of which that can never be

Guide me through these dark hours

Tell me when will this end

Promise me that I can find peace with this fate I face